Thursday, March 26, 2009
I'm sorry
Sigh... why didn't they told me? did such things when i'm not around?..it totally made me feel terrible.. I wonder if I could still trust myself..my body, my mind, it just doesn't feel right i feel like bursting and bleeding out..why do these have to happen? now i'm all soberly angered by these...why? why the fuck do you people have to underestimate me? please don't judge me the way you see my physical form. it's just not right, i hate being disrespected so please don't say such things when you don't even have an idea what kind of person I am. Please don't act like all in front of her...and please don't use my name to attract other people's attention...neither to attract her's, everyone could take your attention but it takes someone to attract your heart. I hope you ignorants and pests get what you wanted because i'm fucking tired of all your nonsense. Anyways i don't wanna spoil my day so..Happy 16th Birthday to P Ong hope life gives you it's best, always pray and study hard.
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 3/26/2009 05:09:00 PM
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Friday, March 20, 2009
切只是你和我。
It's been since i last updated yet again, I am here to post stuffs about my sober life. Sometimes, we all wonder why the feeling called "Love" exists, Most people do think that it's just a part of a growing person's life. Though i wonder, wonder wonder, why do things had to go hard on my way? Am i forsakened enough to experience such things? I'm here again sitting thinking about tons and tons of problems. Man i guess people wouldn't blame me if i commit suicide any moment soon, now i understand why emo kids survive this threatening life.
I just hope life would give out the best for me, i can't afford to handle more harmful stuffs coming, not anymore. Stressed, Saddened, Sober, Depressed, Forsakened. Most of you see me as a happy-go-lucky type, but being a coin face isn't my game anymore, I'm sick of all these shits. Probably all these things could turn me out into a new leaf. Well, i don't know i'm totally confused right now.
Why do you have to entertain the silence?, i guess because it's just me being not around. I understand, i understand you got your needs, but really, i can't help but get jealous over it. Yes i'm a little boy in your eyes, but this little boy is carrying an unconditional love, my unconditional love that only you, offered to you. Now i'm all alone in here feeling all emo and such, i know i'm just missing you so much and baby i need you, i can't help but have sleepless nights with you raiding my mind. I'm being pessimistic all the time you're far away. I guess this is how a loveless feeling that i could understand, The chances are mean and the world is turning back against us. But i know, i know, we could make this out together all it just ever need is just you and me.
There is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but a perfect love.
-Aldous
I just hope life would give out the best for me, i can't afford to handle more harmful stuffs coming, not anymore. Stressed, Saddened, Sober, Depressed, Forsakened. Most of you see me as a happy-go-lucky type, but being a coin face isn't my game anymore, I'm sick of all these shits. Probably all these things could turn me out into a new leaf. Well, i don't know i'm totally confused right now.
Why do you have to entertain the silence?, i guess because it's just me being not around. I understand, i understand you got your needs, but really, i can't help but get jealous over it. Yes i'm a little boy in your eyes, but this little boy is carrying an unconditional love, my unconditional love that only you, offered to you. Now i'm all alone in here feeling all emo and such, i know i'm just missing you so much and baby i need you, i can't help but have sleepless nights with you raiding my mind. I'm being pessimistic all the time you're far away. I guess this is how a loveless feeling that i could understand, The chances are mean and the world is turning back against us. But i know, i know, we could make this out together all it just ever need is just you and me.
-Aldous
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 3/20/2009 08:09:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Onse, Marzoso.
Yo!, how are you?!, how's life threatening you?.
Geez, it's been ages since i last visited here.
Ah well, i wonder why alot of people kept getting sick these days. I guess it's just the swingy weather? mhmmm or they're just like me? who keeps having sleepless nights?
Mehhh Hope they'll be alright soon.
Guess what, alot of things happened recently. And it's been too complicated for me, whew luckily i still got my inspirations to keep me moving on. Thanks alot to everyone who were with me on those times, i know i've been a nuisance to everyone of you, but i hope it won't post a big threat for me and you to be strangers.
English lesson was damn good today, I guess it's the first time i heard Mr Low lectured us regarding about teens being matured. Geez, i'm not being sarcastic or racist but, when i see gangsters, goons, uncivilized people. I'd just get turned off, maybe my view for the surrounding is too clean for them. Don't blame me for being a harmless revolutionary but when the way i see things unbalance, i try to keep it fair in any way i can.
Mhmmm saw some stuffs like these while browsing through net,
"You said, why do you want to make your life so hard? cry is also a day, is also a day.hard for others, also let yourself happy too every day.no need to have no task to entertainment, their troubles.all relax, read your book.do not have to others views, enjoy it. i really remember you said …English, but everything is gone.We do not like a friend, not to say a Word.in whopassed schools.It is not enough that i cherish you, or i have.No one in my ear verbose, no one in the night to accompany me to say something.No one accompany me to drink, and we promise, i see you no longer care.i hope you see, our friendship persists because i treasure your friends."
Reminds me of some novel about a teen being forsakened by friends. she ended up being rebellious and a hater, i seriously feel so much pity about that girl, Although i understand how she felts. But what can i do?, i'm just an ordinary person, like you, him, her, just like anybody else. Sorry i know i'm not good enough to be everyone's friend. But yeah if anyone of you regrets meeting me, I hope you guys got satisfied of feeling relieved and true to yourselves. I respect all of your decisions and it's worth listening to opinions. "You can't expect everyone to be like what you wanted them to be." I'm biased at this, in my views it seems that a person could actually change for the good if they ever want to, just remember, we always do things for a reason whether it's negative or positive.
Oh, adivinar qué?, es hoy en día 11 de marzosooo... me gustaría saludar el amor de mi aniversario del mes de vida de un quinto feliz!, mi amor, de sido cinco meses y la medida que pasa el tiempo, estoy obteniendo saber más acerca de usted, está con usted emocionalmente más aún estamos lejos físicamente unos a otros. Simplemente amo la manera cómo usted hace las cosas, me encanta su tonto formas de seducirme, me aclamación está conmigo y me aman. Agradezco a Dios que una mujer encantadora y amorosa al igual que usted. No se preocupe soy un hombre de mi palabra, quién sabe, yo vaya allí y buscar algún día cuando hemos terminados con nuestros logros primarias?, sólo te quiero mucho. Esperanza obtendrá bien pronto, tener buen cuidado de sí mismo. Prometo, siempre tendrá me por su lado.
Por Siempre, Mi Amor.
To end things here chill ya'll. Even though the weather's kind of swingy and all xD
Geez, it's been ages since i last visited here.
Ah well, i wonder why alot of people kept getting sick these days. I guess it's just the swingy weather? mhmmm or they're just like me? who keeps having sleepless nights?
Mehhh Hope they'll be alright soon.
Guess what, alot of things happened recently. And it's been too complicated for me, whew luckily i still got my inspirations to keep me moving on. Thanks alot to everyone who were with me on those times, i know i've been a nuisance to everyone of you, but i hope it won't post a big threat for me and you to be strangers.
English lesson was damn good today, I guess it's the first time i heard Mr Low lectured us regarding about teens being matured. Geez, i'm not being sarcastic or racist but, when i see gangsters, goons, uncivilized people. I'd just get turned off, maybe my view for the surrounding is too clean for them. Don't blame me for being a harmless revolutionary but when the way i see things unbalance, i try to keep it fair in any way i can.
Mhmmm saw some stuffs like these while browsing through net,
Reminds me of some novel about a teen being forsakened by friends. she ended up being rebellious and a hater, i seriously feel so much pity about that girl, Although i understand how she felts. But what can i do?, i'm just an ordinary person, like you, him, her, just like anybody else. Sorry i know i'm not good enough to be everyone's friend. But yeah if anyone of you regrets meeting me, I hope you guys got satisfied of feeling relieved and true to yourselves. I respect all of your decisions and it's worth listening to opinions. "You can't expect everyone to be like what you wanted them to be." I'm biased at this, in my views it seems that a person could actually change for the good if they ever want to, just remember, we always do things for a reason whether it's negative or positive.
Oh, adivinar qué?, es hoy en día 11 de marzosooo... me gustaría saludar el amor de mi aniversario del mes de vida de un quinto feliz!, mi amor, de sido cinco meses y la medida que pasa el tiempo, estoy obteniendo saber más acerca de usted, está con usted emocionalmente más aún estamos lejos físicamente unos a otros. Simplemente amo la manera cómo usted hace las cosas, me encanta su tonto formas de seducirme, me aclamación está conmigo y me aman. Agradezco a Dios que una mujer encantadora y amorosa al igual que usted. No se preocupe soy un hombre de mi palabra, quién sabe, yo vaya allí y buscar algún día cuando hemos terminados con nuestros logros primarias?, sólo te quiero mucho. Esperanza obtendrá bien pronto, tener buen cuidado de sí mismo. Prometo, siempre tendrá me por su lado.
Por Siempre, Mi Amor.
To end things here chill ya'll. Even though the weather's kind of swingy and all xD
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 3/11/2009 05:04:00 PM
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Friday, February 27, 2009
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PS: Thanks to Anton for uploading this.
Geez...been a while didn't updated blog..
well alot of things are quite happening...
feels like i've lost everything..
although there's still that someone..
someone who always been there..
man i wonder how is she doing right now..
i just miss her badly..
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 2/27/2009 10:49:00 PM
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Sunday, February 22, 2009
Epic!!!
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Please release me from this eternal slumber at 2/22/2009 12:55:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Birthday Trio
Happy Birthday to Yi Ting and Nashru, man you guys are one step closer to death >:D
well..well..wait..it's my birthday too so...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!..
glad she was the 1st one to greet me 2nd was my cousin and 3rd was mei mei ;O! ^__^ exactly 12am...so perfect
she called me and said "happy birthday to you, happy birthday to aldous, happy birthdayyyy to YOU" haha best thing i ever had and not only because it's her first time to sing to a guy haha OMG MY BABY SANG TO ME +w+b but i really appreciated what she did to me..i just love you so much baby.
i guess that's all for now. i'm having tears of joy and she said she's gonna swim haha so silly <3, don't blame me cuz i never had such a thing as this before on my entire life...sooo thanks mei mei, cousin and esp Darling.
WJY. iFly. And i would always do.
well..well..wait..it's my birthday too so...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!..
glad she was the 1st one to greet me 2nd was my cousin and 3rd was mei mei ;O! ^__^ exactly 12am...so perfect
she called me and said "happy birthday to you, happy birthday to aldous, happy birthdayyyy to YOU" haha best thing i ever had and not only because it's her first time to sing to a guy haha OMG MY BABY SANG TO ME +w+b but i really appreciated what she did to me..i just love you so much baby.
i guess that's all for now. i'm having tears of joy and she said she's gonna swim haha so silly <3, don't blame me cuz i never had such a thing as this before on my entire life...sooo thanks mei mei, cousin and esp Darling.
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 2/18/2009 12:11:00 AM
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Preparations preparations preparations
Gosh...lol...it's been another fine day *yawns*
Shit i got late for school .__.'' luckily i didn't got detention...as they said it'll be applied for 4th timers late...whoa so lucky...
well talked to her til 1am+ and slept around 1:30am+ also..i can't sleep mhmmm..
been thinkin of that girl =) sigh how i wish she's here with me so i could express how much do i value and how much do i love her. honey, you're all that i need and there's nothing else more...haha too bad she didn't asked for what kind of present i wanted for my birthday tomorrow...but since she promised me a song, that's the best thing i could possibly get but hey, wouldn't it be more awesome if you're with me right now?, i just fuckin love you. WJY.
Well classes were okay esp PHYSICS!!! haha Me and Lin Jian kept annoying Alvin LOOOOOOL! he got pissed so bad xD but took it as a joke sorry bro <3...well english...
while Mr Low was giving papers before we enter on the room...he suddenly blocked the door when i was about to go in and told me to do my work outside.
so i was like clueless and asked "why?" but he still insisted and said "Because i say so." i was suddenly got pissed about that...the way he treated me so sudden..damn =\ ah well, it's my first time being chased out...that sucks u_u''..i wonder if it's because i told a friend "ni mei yo mu ai" mhmm..but he shouldn't mind it cuz that's how i joke on my friends and that's how i show how much i care for them. In the end, he suddenly said that we're not interested...wow i was like wth man i haven't even entered the room yet i'm not interested in the class? how possible is that...even by saying i was quite late there were much more people who came late than me ~_~''...ah well i guess that's life.
After dismissal i cheered up my mei mei a lil cuz some assclown was pissing on her, geez would you please grow up?. went to canteen to meet Leo to go westmall, he was damn funny even it was only the two of us. He helped me buy a present for someone who has the same birthday on my class too xD since they said they'll give me present..i guess i gotta give too. well it's not always give and take though.
We went to a gift shop and i went like "whoa" the stuffs there were seriously nice. he even told him that i should buy a stuff for my honey too, and i told him "yeah, i sure would." i looked all over the place to see the stuffs and it looks so magnificent and cute. All the couple figurines were sweet too, wish i could give them to her now. imy. love.
He asked me to eat to burger king but i told him i'm sick of it since i've been working there for last holidays xD so he decided to eat at moss burger instead :3 mhmm it was quite good and all he babbled about me are the girls eating there. Lol.
he even got shocked when he saw his crush x3! i told him that the girl might had been following him lol and he was like "Come on baby!" lmao. reminds me of her.
took the same bus with him but he gotta go back to school and leave me going straight at home. oh and by the way, i skipped training, probably i'm done with basketball for now. all the best guys <3
reached home around 5+pm already was quite tired, and went to check if she's online.
Darlingggg come back to me :3 i just miss you so bad now. <3 darbee.
Shit i got late for school .__.'' luckily i didn't got detention...as they said it'll be applied for 4th timers late...whoa so lucky...
well talked to her til 1am+ and slept around 1:30am+ also..i can't sleep mhmmm..
been thinkin of that girl =) sigh how i wish she's here with me so i could express how much do i value and how much do i love her. honey, you're all that i need and there's nothing else more...haha too bad she didn't asked for what kind of present i wanted for my birthday tomorrow...but since she promised me a song, that's the best thing i could possibly get but hey, wouldn't it be more awesome if you're with me right now?, i just fuckin love you. WJY.
Well classes were okay esp PHYSICS!!! haha Me and Lin Jian kept annoying Alvin LOOOOOOL! he got pissed so bad xD but took it as a joke sorry bro <3...well english...
while Mr Low was giving papers before we enter on the room...he suddenly blocked the door when i was about to go in and told me to do my work outside.
so i was like clueless and asked "why?" but he still insisted and said "Because i say so." i was suddenly got pissed about that...the way he treated me so sudden..damn =\ ah well, it's my first time being chased out...that sucks u_u''..i wonder if it's because i told a friend "ni mei yo mu ai" mhmm..but he shouldn't mind it cuz that's how i joke on my friends and that's how i show how much i care for them. In the end, he suddenly said that we're not interested...wow i was like wth man i haven't even entered the room yet i'm not interested in the class? how possible is that...even by saying i was quite late there were much more people who came late than me ~_~''...ah well i guess that's life.
After dismissal i cheered up my mei mei a lil cuz some assclown was pissing on her, geez would you please grow up?. went to canteen to meet Leo to go westmall, he was damn funny even it was only the two of us. He helped me buy a present for someone who has the same birthday on my class too xD since they said they'll give me present..i guess i gotta give too. well it's not always give and take though.
We went to a gift shop and i went like "whoa" the stuffs there were seriously nice. he even told him that i should buy a stuff for my honey too, and i told him "yeah, i sure would." i looked all over the place to see the stuffs and it looks so magnificent and cute. All the couple figurines were sweet too, wish i could give them to her now. imy. love.
He asked me to eat to burger king but i told him i'm sick of it since i've been working there for last holidays xD so he decided to eat at moss burger instead :3 mhmm it was quite good and all he babbled about me are the girls eating there. Lol.
he even got shocked when he saw his crush x3! i told him that the girl might had been following him lol and he was like "Come on baby!" lmao. reminds me of her.
took the same bus with him but he gotta go back to school and leave me going straight at home. oh and by the way, i skipped training, probably i'm done with basketball for now. all the best guys <3
reached home around 5+pm already was quite tired, and went to check if she's online.
Please release me from this eternal slumber at 2/17/2009 06:49:00 PM
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